Put it this way

When Mitch is switched on, he is SWITCHED ON.
(PLEASE keep this switch in the 'ON' position! Do not turn off under any circumstances except perhaps in the most extreme and unless the arm can't still swing....... ok :)

There are certain advantages to having your man read your blog. It does seem to lead to a kickstart in some form or another.
Last Thursday I did get my wine :) I did get maintenance (is it wrong to be pleased about this fact?) and the 'calm thingy' started getting smaller in size again. Unfortunately because the kids were in bed, the 'quiet' implements tend to come out to play.
It was kinda hard to take it mega seriously at first because of the pink housecoat Mitch was wearing at the time but that soon became long forgotten when the cane appeared and it wasn't over all that fast either.

We then went on to have a brilliant much needed FUN weekend with the kids with only a little strop of mine thrown in on Sunday which was stopped completely and utterly in it's tracks, because while the kids were out in the garden playing, I was kinda manhandled off the couch after a blatant refusal to get upstairs! I tried hard not to stomp up them but failed slightly I'm sure. It was all over quickly for obvious reasons but it was enough to get the point across shall we say!

Forward to yesterday where I spent rather a long time in the bending over position to another very thorough maintenance session and because the kids were at school, there was no need for quietness! Say hello to the Lexan again....... save for a short spell by hand......... ONLY the Lexan!

"you seem to be having a hard time staying in position?"

"REALLY???"

Do you want to know the position I ended up in?

Kneeling on the floor, bending over the side of the bed, arms stretched out in front of me, with Mitch kinda half sitting on me facing the opposite way........

AND I COULD NOT MOVE!

Of course he hadn't his full weight on me but enough for little or no wriggle leeway. Ouch!!! So then of course I had no option but to just....... take it.

Y'know there is loads more I could say but I'm not feeling in a very 'in-depth or examining' mood tonight. But I'll get around to it at some point.

I will say that I haven't felt low or down really in any way since we've kickstarted back off...... coincidence? I don't think so actually.

Oh........ Just one last thing........ I read an interesting theory today that has had me thinking. I'd really really like a DEEP fish pond in my garden :)

Day 5

Naaahhhhhhh! I'm only kidding on!

But I had you's going for a minute there didn't I :)

There is another problem though. See this 'calm' that I spoke about yesterday? Y''know the one. Where beforehand, mountains become molehills. You feel like nothing can stop you. You feel super positive about everything and negative thoughts are kept at bay?

Well the 'Calm Thingy' has been rather busy...................................

growing arms and legs........

So I'm thinking....................

Or.......................

would perhaps be beneficial?

Or both? :)

Continental Shifts

So...... it's been like forever 4 days since my last meeting with any form of 'contact' :)
(discounting phonecalls and txts obviously)

And no flakys, yet :)


Day 1 - I miss him as much as I can miss him and still feel the after effects of our dynamic, thus still feeling that calmness.

Day 2 - yep, still missing him but resigned to the fact that I cannot change this. And still feeling the effects of our dynamic and yes, still feeling calm :)

Day 3 - missing him but quite happy doing my own thing because I know it won't be that long until I see him again but the after effects of our dynamic have faded considerably. Still feeling calm but experiencing a slight shift.

Day 4 - today actually :) - after effects 0! Super Independent, blasé feelings arise. I am just totally FINE. Yeah cool I'll see him 'whenever'. Dynamic? What dynamic? I'm not angry, I'm not sad, I'm quite happy. But I feel the calm shift thingy busy growing arms and legs.




Day 5............. anyone wanna guess
how tomorrow goes?

Come back tomorrow?

Ok I'm going to try a serious post. I occasionally feel a tad 'shallow' in blogland where there are so many profound writings and comments and revelations......... and then there's me....... who's sometimes just happy to be getting as far as a spanking and to hell with the rest of it :) Ha!

After reading about spankings going on every day for 6 days over at Susie's, my 1st reaction was jealous MUCH! :)
But I'm more than happy to announce that I managed 4 days! Ok ok I know the 'aim' is to actually NOT be in the position to get them, but well......

I'm a spanko for goodness sake!!

And it was maintenance. Not punishment! I'm so bloody well behaved y'know :)
(actually, not quite sure if this makes me happy or not)

I should probably rename it 'Erotic Maintenance' seeing as they seemed to blend, which can be a little confusing but well I won't lie and say it wasn't fun :)
I'm not saying I actually feel mega submissive as such but definitely more 'owned' in the loveliest sense, but I gotta say, I really have appreciated the effort that's been made by Mitch lately in the spanking/ttwd department and I attribute that effort to the calmness I am feeling right now. What were mountains last week have become molehills that I can actually see over! How weird!
My attitude has shifted somewhat to being much less stressed and to a more positive outlook.
And hey, who would have thought that my glass would be half full at last! It's only taken 6 months :)
(See what you can do with consistency babe? :)

I dare say the calmness and closeness I've been lucky enough to feel will need regular topping up of course, with perhaps just the odd 'more intense' one flung in here and there, but hey...... who am I to try and mastermind this :)

So I guess I should maybe try and say something profound now..........




Nope! I ain't got anything :)
Maybe tomorrow.......

The effects of ttwd

Things have shifted.

Before I was a bit like:

And just a little bit:

And Mitch was kinda like:

But over the course of the last few days, he has made his feelings more than obvious:

So now I'm kinda like:

And we are both now:

Waiting

I've surprised myself with being mildly anxious all day today. Not in a bad way as such, but I've 'felt' it all the same.
Ok so the 'alert' has just went off. We're faffing about waiting on the kids going into DEEP sleeps!
I have a feeling it's going to be a fairly intense few days. This isn't a bad thing either, I feel I need the extra reassurance and the extra.......... intent if you like!

So......

Smiling while I still can!

"all I've got to do is to remember maintenance."
"well you've got a phone calendar with alert options, schedule it!"

Ha! I think I might come to regret this!

"so what days have you scheduled so far?"
"Tuesday,Wednesday and Friday next week".

eh....... Okaaaay

But right now.........